oh my lil girl!!

missing this little baby of mine..
ilya maisarah riza

i'm (NOT) okay

another day in my life..
i wanna go home early today...
i just wanna get some early sleep..
that's all..

for time being,
please enjoy these pictures i found just now..
this is exactly how i feel....

severe headache

i told my mom that i'm experiencing severe headache
when i have it, i feel like everything in this world is spinning
and there are birds singing in my head..
this is happening all the time, anytime and it worsen when i try to recall things, remembering people and try to reminisce the good old days..
every time i tried to recall things, it usually ends up with blurry images and incomplete episode..
some images were people smiling, looking at me, patting at my back, chitchatting or just a hug i don't know with whom..
at times, i feel tired and i don't want to think about it..
i will just ignore and refuse to greet or smile at people..
just let it be...

Like I'm Gonna Loose You

I heard a song on the radio - "Like I'm Gonna Loose You" by Meghan Trainor and John Legend.  The song is melting and the lyric is just so sweet to my ears..

it says:-

So I'm gonna love you
like i'm gonna lose you
and I'm gonna hold you
like i'm saying goodbye..

that's exactly what i wanna do for now since i have recovered..
to love more of myself and the kids..
gonna make time for me and them..
and to love them all my life..

 at this point, i am still struggling to remember things.. i wish this will pass..

a day that is so refreshing

hi there!

today is the day i woke up so fresh and headache-free.. woooppy!!!
i thank Allah for the air that i breath, and still giving me another day to do good deeds, repent and spend time with loved ones!

i had breakfast with my gang, chitchatted and laughed out loud..
it's been a while i did not laugh this hard
i feel happy and wonderful..