Like I'm Gonna Loose You

I heard a song on the radio - "Like I'm Gonna Loose You" by Meghan Trainor and John Legend.  The song is melting and the lyric is just so sweet to my ears..

it says:-

So I'm gonna love you
like i'm gonna lose you
and I'm gonna hold you
like i'm saying goodbye..

that's exactly what i wanna do for now since i have recovered..
to love more of myself and the kids..
gonna make time for me and them..
and to love them all my life..

 at this point, i am still struggling to remember things.. i wish this will pass..